tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353423272024-03-12T18:32:19.920-04:00iislucasponderings, experiences, moodsiislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.comBlogger61125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-88170488137999784232019-05-24T16:47:00.001-04:002019-07-04T06:51:08.403-04:00Liquid Representation<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Representative concepts of democracy can be thought of as having a viscosity; a lumpiness. Today's versions are extremely lumpy: you vote for one person to represent you on every topic, and you vote only once every 4 years or so. So there are three dimensions: the people who represent you, the topics they represent you on, and the frequency you get to select them. If we put the concept of representation in a blender, to make the most liquid concept, we get a sentence like: you can vote for whoever you want, to represent you on whatever you want, whenever you want.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Of course there are reasons for the infrequency of voting. One is the cost of course; I recently learnt that in France it costs 250 million Euros to hold a general election (not including the economic cost of people not working during that time). Another reason is to give those in power enough time to enact the policies we voted them in for; otherwise, it would be very hard to make (more) significant changes in government.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A few years ago I sketched </span><a href="https://iislucas.blogspot.com/2015/02/a-rational-reconstruction-of-democratic.html?m=1" style="text-decoration: none;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: #1155cc; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration-skip-ink: none; text-decoration: underline; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">a vision of democracy</span></a><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">, based on my interpretation of liquid representation to elect "trusted thinkers". The idea is that people express trust on topics to others, and they can change it when they want. Trust is transitive: if I trust you on a topic, and you trust someone else, that someone gets some of my trust too. And now, when a decision needs to be made we can efficiently (programmatically) select a small set of people based on what skills are needed to make that decision. If the network of trust is dense enough, most people will have someone they trust (indirectly) in the decision making group. There's lots of questions we can ask about such a system, and the answers depend on further questions we don't know; after all we don't have any human liquid trust systems yet... So this is mostly hand waving for now, but...</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">In the years that passed since my first blog post, I noticed a few things:</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">* Liquid representation does in fact already exists: it's called page-rank, and it is a key ingredient of search engines - it's the key idea that made google succeed: each page can express trust on the topic of the text link to the page it links to. When you search, you are basically asking for the most trusted pages on that topic. (And lots of details of course, like non-exact text matching, contents of pages, click-signals, etc). It just hasn't been applied to people as far as I know.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">* Page rank produces stable rankings, despite, in theory, pages having the ability to change links at any time; and also despite significant vested interests fighting for the top link. If we think of this applied to people, changing links corresponds to changing who you trust on what. And we can engineer the system to create whatever kind of friction we want. E.g. We can require people to read things written by the people who represent them. This design space allows to imagine all kinds of "viscosity" for democratic liquid-esk-representation.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">* The main attacks to game page-rank are by creating new web pages. This can't be done as easily with people. So we might expect liquid trust to be more robust to gaming than web-search. Managing identity is not without challenges, but it is much easier than managing existence of web pages.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">* There's an interesting concept called h-index from citation measurement: the idea is that scientists get points for publications and they get points for other scientists citing their publication. A scientist's h-index score is the largest number of papers they wrote that have the most citations (or more). Writing 7 papers that are cited 3 times, and 1 cited 11 times, gets you a score of 3. Writing 4 papers cited 23 times, and 10 papers cited twice gets you a score of 4. We could apply the same idea to liquid trust to avoid it becoming a popularity contest: make sure the network isn't too star shaped.</span></span></div>
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iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-9883290239727605442015-02-17T00:42:00.001-05:002015-02-18T02:39:30.173-05:00A rational reconstruction of democratic thinking<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-70807734498494427612014-10-25T17:59:00.000-04:002014-10-26T20:42:05.294-04:00Acceptance<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">To not accept something is to want to change it. A view of acceptance is realizing that we have done all that we can towards what we want. But why stop at all you can do? Could you stop much earlier too, and would it still be OK... or even preferable?</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Have you ever been told to just accept a situation, but being told this left you feeling frustrated? It can seem like being told to relax, to love, to be happier, or to just not be hungry: the act of being told to feel differently than we do does not feel helpful in itself; it tends to result in feeling misunderstood.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">For example, imagine being told to accept the end of a relationship. It's easy to imagine feeling angry and frustrated by the loss, and to feel that the people telling you to just accept it are not respecting the pain and longing you feel for that relationship. We don't want to suffer, but being told to not feel the pain, and to instead accept the way things are is incongruous. And there is a deeper problem in being told to accept what we feel are bad things: it can double as telling us to want something different than we want, and implicitly cast a shadow of shame on who we are.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">So what can be said that is better than 'accept it'? After all, when we tell people to accept something, it is usually because we feel that nothing can be done to make the situation better than it is. Here perhaps is the clue... can we interpret acceptance in way that we are not left with a feeling of disrespecting our pain and loss?</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">An analogy with drawing: when drawing there is a point at which any other line added to the picture makes the picture worse; a point when nothing can be added to make the picture better. When the artist realizes nothing more can be added, this is a kind of acceptance of the artwork. It's not always a perfect picture; but short of throwing it away, it's what it is.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">To me, this was an unusual but liberating image. Instead of fighting to accept what I actually don't want to - which feels like a disrespect of myself - the image moves me to be curious about what I have done so far, where I am, and to ask if there is an action I can take that is truly helpful? Or maybe there isn't? Have I done what I want already, have I done less or more? Sometimes we need to stop adding actions, drawing lines, pushing, and trying harder to do more stuff because it is counter productive to do so. We can ask have I drawn the last line that I truly wish to? This question makes me feel I have choice; and perhaps provides a path to accepting if indeed I have. Maybe it would be easier to accept a situation if people had told me that they thought all that had been possible to do had already been done. Then acceptance would be my choice again. So maybe the question to ask is: do you think there is more to be done that will help you? This separates the current state of pain, which is whatever it is, form the question of should one act further.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">This concept of acceptance, with the wrong squint, may have a ghost of perfectionism lurking in it. And this brings me to a another concept. It is tempting to say the picture is as perfect as it can be. But why stop there? Why not retreat all the way back to a concept 'good enough'? We could stop drawing much earlier, when the picture is good enough; when it is sufficient for what we want it for. And now I feel the landscape is truly laid bare and its freedoms presented: at this point it seems we can walk as far as we like on the field from the best possible to the minimally sufficient; and perhaps this philosophy just comes down to just asking oneself where do we want to go now? </span></div>
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iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-25465161849141842422014-08-31T22:53:00.003-04:002014-08-31T22:54:28.309-04:00Costumes; a cornerstone of benevolant democracy<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="line-height: 1.4;">I like costumes. They are a cornerstone of democracy. The capacity to express oneself pseudonymous enables free-expression; it is a way to protect free-expression and allow people to speak out against corruption for example. As such, I see it as a foundation for benevolent democracy.</span></div>
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iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-972843780192952302014-08-10T12:05:00.000-04:002014-08-10T12:08:43.676-04:00feelings towards, and the object of attention<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">One of the less inspiring window displays in Chelsea. But it makes me smile to see it!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I've become enamored with a couple of concepts recently... here's the first: <b>"We have feelings towards the object of our attention"</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Feelings don't happen to us. They are not a direct result of us, or our environmental: they are the result of the application of attention to something. It's kind of obvious at the extremes: you can't feel much about things that you don't know anything about and never experience. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The phrasing itself entices one to ask what is the object of my attention that produces this feeling?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Claim: we don't control the way we feel much, but we can control much more easily our attention. But not completely - a loud noise can capture our attention for example. But in many ways we do get to choose the focus of our attention. And what's more, focusing attention is a learnable skill. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">But here's the real punchline: there are 'fixed points' of emotion: there are some feelings that when we make them the object of our attention result in the same feeling! If we make our grumpyness the object of our attention (we think "damn, I feel so grumpy"), it often results in exactly the same feeling of grumpiness ("crap, I'm so grumpy feeling, I hate it!"). It's an attention-feeling fixed point! How cool is that? I noticed this while feeling grumpy one day :) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Attention itself is a fluid, partially malleable thing. So it begs us to think about what is attention? What flexibility do we have in its focus? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">This also provides a neat model for the impact of breathing meditation. Making breathing the focus of our attention takes our mind and emotions off of other things. And breathing seems to </span>inspire<span style="font-family: inherit;"> common feeling among pretty much all people: paying attention to our breathing... feels good. </span><br />
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Nostalgic symbol and creature of freedom and power from my childhood, found in perpetual watch of the eater on this plate from 1500 Seville. </div>
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We have a capacity to a sense of having choices. In stark contrast, an overwhelming feeling of choicelessness can also descend. I recall being in a bar, and wondering about going over and talking to some young women drinking nearby. And I notice 4 things: a fear, insecurity at the imagination of some kind of rejection; an intellectual impasse at in searching for a social reason to start the interaction; an indifference as they don't actually seem that interesting to me; and a desire to be part of their company, to engage with them. All are there at once. And, from the observation, I notice a curious part of myself that observes the others without judgment. Sometimes there is also a judgey part of myself that doesn't accept the fearful feelings I have. But lately curiosity has been taking over and I am flooded with an internal gratitude. </div>
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I put up 2 hooks to hold my wooden aikido sward yesterday, and looking at it I feel the sward is a little too far to the left. But I still like it.</div>
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iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-48898678556579629692014-01-26T21:36:00.000-05:002014-07-06T21:36:44.753-04:00Dixon's Bike Shop<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-78768866411802485032013-12-06T21:38:00.000-05:002014-07-06T21:40:10.929-04:00Flaming cocktails<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">Flaming cocktails… Last night I dreamt that I was in the garden of a british mansion house where people were having tea and croissants. I was there to fight in a mixed martial arts tournament against a fat lady with an axe. </span></div>
iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-41124968910831933022013-11-10T21:42:00.000-05:002014-07-06T21:45:22.164-04:00Pride and the greasy yummy snack<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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On the corner of 145th street, by the ACBD line, is a Caribbean food shop that sells, for $1, three of these snacks which I’ve only ever had in Madagascar before - an oily, sour and slightly sweet treat… a nostalgic taste. </div>
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Today, from the other side of the US, I ponder pride, which has two such distinct meanings! It can be an rooted in admiration, or it can be rooted in insecurity and the need to protect one's ego. I find it a bit strange how the word has adopted these two, so different, meanings… except I see that the psychology blends smoothly and looks very similar from the outside as at times... I’m wondering, there must be a question that we can ask that divides the two meanings naturally… but I haven't found it yet. </div>
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Hong Kong makes New York feel kind of rural. There's an amazing amount of messy concrete chic.<br />
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I day-dreamt of futures, as I walk home from work; imagining how life could be. It turns out that it's hard (for me) to imagine a future I really want... or rather it's easy, but a little too fictional when it happens.<br />
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Eli eats some pizza.<br />
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I got given a phone today, a fancy thing, but I don't have a phone contract, so I can't use it without setting up a contract and paying... I dream of a future without admin...<br />
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And, not related, but also something I was thinking about, I'll get married on Friday it looks like... life trundles on!iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-10558848092809168432011-12-03T01:47:00.001-05:002011-12-03T01:48:16.795-05:00dropping timeSo I'll not be methodical, I declare. I'll skip and jump about as I please. It's a night I don't care to sleep. I decided today, tonight, to map out what I care for doing. It seems to divide into 4 parts... political/saving the world (kenyersel.org), science/mathematics (mostly graphical languages and learning basic university maths I missed, or just forgot), physical things/movement (aikido, tango, tai chi), and creative/artistic (learning to play music, drawing, poetry).... and... oops... I missed out fun! (for me that's reading, also dancing and socialising and cooking and going to see films). Then I thought about how I'm spending my time, frantically trying to float on the sea of stuff not happening... <br />
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But nonetheless, it makes me feel more optimistic. Knowing what I like, and thinking that maybe I could change my life to do it... I daydream of working 2 or 3 days a week so I can spend the rest of the time doing my hobbies...<br />
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I then did some catching up on what's going on in my email box, piles of ancient things I've told myself I'll reply to. I 'star' things I want to come back to... the star looks now like a symbol of gilt... but along the way found my favorite thing that happens this time of year, a new song every day from <a href="http://www.atheistadvent.com/">the atheist advent</a>... now I'm smiling and thinking to read a book in bed.iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-50111286236291219872011-11-21T21:28:00.000-05:002011-11-21T21:28:46.365-05:00return to words<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-kdyzGRExPJ8/Tr3OprhNx7I/AAAAAAAAAyo/udFUAmKmhEI/s1600/IMG_20111022_121212.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-kdyzGRExPJ8/Tr3OprhNx7I/AAAAAAAAAyo/udFUAmKmhEI/s320/IMG_20111022_121212.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-uNDeE7YDkTs/Tr3OhVjPe_I/AAAAAAAAAyY/vgP6KVOna24/s1600/IMG_20111022_120959.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-uNDeE7YDkTs/Tr3OhVjPe_I/AAAAAAAAAyY/vgP6KVOna24/s320/IMG_20111022_120959.jpg" width="240" /></a>I stopped writing for a while; I lost sense of purpose in writing. I felt I was restricting myself in my writing. I wanted to say a lot more, and also less. That wordless cloud has passed. My fear was that it pointless in the onslaught of social media; the fear subsided. Pointfullness is a hopeless struggle.<br />
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Anyway, I spent some time recently in Shanghai, where I discovered the building in these photos. 1933 is it's name. A former slaughter house of concrete that makes my mind run wild with sci-fi imaginings. Now full of boutique shops, cafes and random spaces in progress.<br />
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I found China (Beijing and Shanghai) made New York feel like a pale shadow of capitalism in comparison. There's a lot of money in China, a lot of action, a lot happening. A strong sense of the country growing, blossoming. Coming back to New York, I found a new affection for this city. It's darkness and brokenness. iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-16792851026727423122011-08-20T16:21:00.001-04:002014-07-03T18:04:31.933-04:00Saturday in sunday's clothes, more tea<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-27648377175708931532011-08-07T17:54:00.000-04:002011-08-07T17:54:35.599-04:00missing EdinburghI'm missing Edinburgh this Sunday... so I tore into washing dishes, they are all done now. I still feel a bit melancholy; did some chores, wrote emails, fighting the eternal war against admin.<br />
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I dreamed of my father a few days ago, he was thin and unwell, desperate to get another hit of morphine. He cared for me, but was also twisted out of society by addiction and desperation.We were in the south of spain, he was on the run; I remember the dry dust and smell of herbs and heat and ruins. When he was fed, he was ok, but when hungry he was agitated, wild, and risk-taking.<br />
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I have a Ramadan dinner plan tonight - should be fun and friendly. I think I have a sense of needing projects, and of needing those projects to progress; maybe I should try and be more satisfied with living, and care less about projects... perhaps I'm just falling into my familiar "finally catching up on sleep blues"... this city is a lot more work to live in, and I miss my dear friends from Edinburgh...<br />
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But then there are some wonderful things here too... And Simone has just arrived from her boat trip, looking well and adventurous, as well as a little tired from the long train ride from North Carolina. iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-54245098910247489132011-08-01T00:09:00.000-04:002011-08-01T00:09:46.837-04:00A sunday walk through town<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-5ztBvWXKmns/TjYkbXnP4BI/AAAAAAAAAWg/Qa0bwpqLwRY/s1600/IMG_20110731_164650.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-5ztBvWXKmns/TjYkbXnP4BI/AAAAAAAAAWg/Qa0bwpqLwRY/s320/IMG_20110731_164650.jpg" width="320" /></a>It was Sunday today, I ceased it with unusual indulgence. After a slow waking up, an excursion to eat - the place was good, but brutally noisy - I retreated to Grumpies, where we partook in reading newspapers, and I settled into myself happily again. Then a walk, via various shops. A shop selling colourful pillows; jewelry shops; sex-toy shops, and finally arriving at the cafe where Harry met Sally. Chowing a pastrami sandwich, and discussing the strange little fears that one lives through: mostly I cower under the fear of saying what I want... sometimes so much, that I don't know what I want! Luckily I was advised to eat the pastrami sandwich, some soup, and something resembling hash browns. Past an exciting bookshop on the way home, and it's already tomorrow. Now I'm sitting, doing nothing much, noticing little drops of sweat run down and tickle my tummy... time to sit by a fan or turn on air conditioning, else I'll be a raisin by the morning...<br />
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I bumped into the phrase "the whole is more than the sum of it's parts", and I was reminded of how thirsty this sometimes leaves my mind... <br />
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Briefly, I think the key observation is that "the sum of their parts" is usually rather undefined. The question is often really about the notion of "sum"...<br />
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For instance, consider how 2 * 3 = 6, and 2 + 4 = 6. Addition (2 + 4) and multiplication (2 * 3) are both functions that result in 6, but with different constituents (2 and 4, vs 2 and 3). So the question is then, "what are the parts of 6?". The number 6 can be made by from 2 and 3, but it is certainly more than the sum of 2 and 3 (2 + 3 = 5), so 6 is more than the sum of it's parts!? On the other hand if 2 and 4 are the parts of 6, then it is exactly the sum of it's parts. If 2, 4, 2 and 3 are all parts of 6 then 6 is way less than the sum of it's parts...<br />
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The general point being that there is a special relationship between "parts" and "sums". If you use the wrong kind of sum, then you don't get the whole from it's parts. Sometimes you get more, sometimes less. So, if ever someone tells you that something is more than the sum of its parts, it's interesting to ask, what kind of sum? and what kind of parts?<br />
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iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-53948356121186572212011-07-04T15:41:00.000-04:002011-07-04T15:41:16.210-04:00a tripThere's a kind of squeeky cleanness, and a stiff unhappy look to the people; the painful look of money. Hiding out in a Moroccan cafe after the conference, drinking mint tea, I find myself next to the bravado of x-pat British lads, telling stories of their triumphs. I blank it out; indulge in my programming and tea. Waiting to compile, the evening arrives, clear blue, pleasant temperatures.iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-74409408236779279572011-06-20T22:06:00.000-04:002011-06-20T22:06:55.113-04:00a dog named lucas, lucas phoneless, weekend larksI've met a dog with the same name I have; a grey 'scotty' dog, big whiskers. More than almost anything else, he seems to love licking my feet - I'm reminded of an approximation my dad's words: "dogs have a delightful disrespect for the disgusting".<br />
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Last weekend's blur started with friday night of tense but amusing Hitchcock, in 3D! 'dial M for murder' a thriller/mystery delight; carefully unfolding plot, pulling me to and from a grim murder-minded character. It all ends happily, but I'm still a staggering zombie stunned walking out the cinema. Recovered by way of drinks at an enthusiastic music mad and ball-guided frenchman's loft-like apartment. Saturday rolls on and I make my way to a cheeze-party in Central Park. Cheese, wine and a random guy who makes a mean mojito cocktail throws the party into a slurring, happy, basking in the sun til the afternoon ends and I loose my phone. Amazingly I feel no loss for the phone; a little worry about someone using my phone, but I call up and cancel it and it's like I never had one again. <br />
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So I'm thrown back to my days before telephone; even more so perhaps now that I have no home phone either. It's a strange sense, loosing the power of instant communication. But I've ordered a swanky and new smart machine that looks like an Ian Banks spacecraft. It'll take some days to arrive, and then I'll finally arrive into the universe of my work-peers. So, until then, I'm email and silences.<br />
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Sunday I dance in Union square. There's a man in a bin watching everyone, and there's another man watching the man in a bin too. I dance on.iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35342327.post-58405256236222180482011-06-11T22:04:00.000-04:002011-06-11T22:04:27.229-04:00return of the ceiling, my gnome, on a hot hot dayIt's been getting hot; the kind of heat that tickles you all over as little droplets of sweat magic themselves all over you, as if you are melting, your body slowly trickling its way home, back to the ocean.<br />
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My flat feels like it is haunted by little gnomes. When I'm at work, the sneak in; sometimes they break things: a blind here, a light-bulb there; they stomp about in big boots and leave dusty prints too. But I feel strangely fond of them as they, bit by bit, also magic a bathroom a new ceiling. To be honest it looked more interesting before with the wood and pipes. Just the light is missing now on the white ceiling.<br />
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At work, I feel like a gnome, trialing away at bits and pieces, enjoying it more as I find a good pace, and find myself able to contribute. This week has been paper reading, reviewing, and come 5pm, I go to practice Aikido in the furnace, land of foot smells. Then back to work for a little longer, perhaps having some food there. It's been a social time recently too; parties on roof-tops, barbeques, conceptual art in the form of rent-a-burka, and indulgent luxurious lie-ins.iislucashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06161923346363412268noreply@blogger.com0